Trying to keep up here

That is what I am TRYING to do.

So here I go to say that yesterday was the suckiest Monday ever.. in a very long time. Our cat Sebastian finally went to play with his sister Jasmine. It was so sad. Dan & I were going to take him in yestrday & he just beat us to it. I felt horrible. He lost a lot of weight & he lost is meowing & he would dissappear for a few days on end.. but Sunday night he could barely stand up & as much as I wanted him to come in.. he couldn't because he was just loaded with fleas. So with old age & him probably eaten alive by those fleas & me being an awful mommy kitty-he just went to sleep. I cried for like an hour in the morning & had to get myself together to open the store. Dan was in Portland he went to see Velvet Revolver & Alice in Chains. Which is fine.. just that I knew Sebastain wouldn't last until he returned home. I found him under his table in the garage where he has had to be since we pretty much moved into the house. Apparently he & Jasmine BOTH didn't like the house. Guess I should have asked if they approved before we moved. They just decided to pee in my house. After $1000.00 worth of vet visits.. they still couldn't solve the issue with the peeing or Sebastian's other issues. It has been a fighting and loosing battle. I guess I want to justify this all.. and I can't. It's just sad to loose a pet who has been in your life for 15 years. Dan buried him under a tree near the house.. we can see the tree every morning.. and right now it just makes me cry. He was a good boy... he was so lovey-- so sweet. We will miss him. Cam said he is making him a little cross for his site. He took flowers to it yesterday. So sweet. He REALLY misses his "Bastian".

A few other sucky things happened-- but that is the kicker. Anyhoo- sorry to be a bad blogger day. I'll catch ya'l later with better news. :o)